Today is the first day of 2016. Alice is complete. There is no love like the love of a pet. The constant unconditional love they give us. The memory never fades away. I know Vayda misses her beloved companion so much. We never forget them. They are our protectors, our listening ear, our comfort in sadness, our calm, always loving us. Nobody can replace that kind of love. She is missed.
2015 for me was full of questions and I went to the deepest depths of my soul to find answers. Because I spent so much time this year seeking "why" I do things the way I do, feel a certain way....or simply - why are things the way they are, I only completed one portrait this year. It was a very emotional year.
I am ready to move forward into 2016. I have made peace with a lot of my childhood and my expectations of how people and experiences in my life should be. Things ARE exactly as they should be for me. I have finally accepted and come face to face with my guilt, loneliness, anger, things I simply have no control over and accepted the things that are every piece of me.
Time to roll with it, walk this path laid out just for me and let my light shine. I found people that I can feel "normal" around, safe, and be myself. I have found that when we heal parts of ourselves we can finally see that tribe of people like us that we have been looking for our whole lives, ready to welcome us with open arms, who love us for who we are through and through. Healing ones self is a long journey. I realize some lessons are necessary and even protect us from a worse fate. I am grateful for every lesson, even those that cut deep into my heart. For they have made me stronger, more loving, more confident and prepared for what lies ahead. I find myself leaping into the new year and new experiences. I am still missing our loved ones and dear departed drawings are very much going to be a part of 2016. One love.
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